What a mess. And both boys, tangled and troubled, can only ever make it worse before they try to make it better. IS it wrong to love someone so much that they become all things? Maybe. I don't know, I've never had a reason to find out. But the boys have, and your fic feels so realistic to me, it almost has me wishing for Castiel to barge in and call a time-out. I don't know what else to say, except how much I truly hurt for them and deeply enjoyed this story. Thank you for sharing it with us all.